In the search and vision which were mine
But I lost your esteem as well as for losing my heart's desire.
I was not like the veterns of wars
Admired for my disabled body and mind,
And pointed to as a hero of great battles.
No, I was smiled at as one who had failed and lost,
Having asked everything on a vision.
No pension for me! No reverence for a creeping strength!
Was my life a failure then?
I succeeded, I won!
Having seen visions, and dreamed dreams
beyond anything you can imagine
who give medals, and reward the do-natives!